I cheated on my controlling partner.

Hey I'm 25 years I'm a mother of two. I had my 1st born when I was 16 years old and at that time I was doing Grade 10. I thought I will never make a same mistake again but I was very wrong, I dated this guy I think for 5 years and he was my child's father. We  loved one other and supporting each other but he changed and used to beat me up and wanted  to sleep with me by force. I was still young I was 18 years old I got pregnant again with his 2nd child, and nearly lost my life when I was giving birth, luckily he made it  and now he's doing Grade 2.

I broke up with my partner,and I found a new guy who I was in love with, he loved my kids as his own, but the problem was that he didn't have kids of his own. Years went past and this guy is older than me by 11 years,and he starting to rule me with my life; what must I do, what I must not wear.

I cheated on him with another guywho I real love a lot. I  dated him more than 4 months, and we did have sex but in a safe way, we did used condoms but I just found out that I'm pregnant with his child and I'm 9weeks. The problem is I didn't break up with my 1st man and he thinks we are still dating. I'm thinking of doing an abortion because I don't know what to do. Please help me with my problem.

Editor's Comment

This sounds complicated and I am not sure that abortion will sort out your problem. If you are unhappy in a controlling relationship you need to get out of it however hard that is. There are women's refuges where you can get help if you are frightened of how your partner will react to you ending the relationship. I think that having an abortion will still leave you with a difficult relationship that you need to sort out.