I lost my baby the exact day I was to hear its heartbeat for the very first time

I am twenty four years old and I miscarried on April fourteenth of this year.

This was my first pregnancy and since I miscarried I have not dealt with any of the emotions that I have been feeling.

I have been referred to counseling but I felt the need to share my story with women who have also gone through this.

I lost my baby at nine weeks and five days the exact day I was going in to hear its heartbeat for the very first time. And it devastes me because the week prior I had been told that everything was going well and my pregnancy was healthy.

Now I am stuck with the feeling as to why??