I was 17, in a sort of on/off relationship with this guy when I decided to end the relationship for good. He attacked me and raped me.
By anonymous on 12/06/2008
Hi there, I thought I would share my story. It’s been a year now since I had my little girl. She turned one yesterday. This is my story: I was 17, in a sort of on/off relationship with this guy when I decided to end the relationship for good. He attacked me and raped me. My life was in pieces; I was depressed and ready to harm myself, then I was hit....my period was late and my pregnancy test positive, even though I had taken the morning after pill. I didn’t want this baby. I went for an abortion at 8 weeks, but when I got there, I couldn’t do it. I froze and my best friend took me home again. I carried on with my pregnancy only telling my twin sister about it, then at 6 months, when I was struggling to hide my bump anymore we sat down and told my parents. They were more than supportive, I couldn’t have asked for better! At 35 weeks I went into labour and gave birth to my beautiful baby girl. When she was 5 weeks old, I met his guy, J. He was brilliant with my baby and careful with me knowing what I’d been through. Six months later we were engaged and living together in our own home. I couldn’t be happier. J is my baby’s dad, maybe not biologically, but he’s there for her and she really is a daddy’s girl!
Now, one year on, we are still in our house but we are now married and I am 8 months pregnant with my second, due on June 29th. I’m really looking forward to giving my princess a little brother or sister to play with and somebody else for J and me to give our love to. Thank you for reading * * * much love * * *.
Editor’s note: Thank you for sharing your story with us…Something in your heart must have known that despite the circumstances of your baby’s conception, there was something positive and healing about pursuing the pregnancy. You paid attention to your heart - I wonder if your heart was saying that having an abortion would compound and make worse the pain of your rape experience rather than remove it from your consciousness. Whatever was going on deep down inside of you, you sound as if you are doing really well and have overcome a terrible experience.
Should you ever feel any need to address any difficulties associated with your experience, you can contact the Life Centre in Chichester that specialises in counselling women who have survived rape or abuse. The website is www.lifecentre.uk.com; the phone number is 01243 779196 and the email address is info@lifecentre.uk.com.