I'd already decided to have a termination, and booked the appointment, before telling my mum

At 15 I found myself being quickly swept along in a whirlwind holiday romance. Before I knew it I had missed a period.

When I first took the test my original reaction was excitement, that was exactly what I had always wanted (to have a family).

Writing it now, it sounds so crazy that at 15 I was pleased about this. But anyway, another 5 weeks full of guilt passed. My mum was noticing my mood swings, and I finally told her when I was 9 weeks pregnant.

Although I could see how upset she was knowing I was actually having a physical relationship with the individual, she offered full support in whatever decision I wanted to make.

Previous to telling my mum I had already made the decision to have a termination and had booked an appointment at the clinic where the procedure could be carried out.

My first appointment was to talk everything over, to ensure I was making the right decision and also to ensure I didn't want to continue the pregnancy to adopt.

My second appointment I had one set of tablets. I was told if I felt pain before the next set of tablets "the pregnancy was probably on the way out anyway" - something which still hurts me now to think about. I was angry with my nurse for saying that so bluntly but I guess that's life.

My third appointment was the last set of tablets and pessaries. The pain & sickness I had after this was incredible. After having false labour contractions for around 1hr 30mins I passed baby and placenta.

After the termination I was given a course of tablets to take to prevent infection. Although I was taking the tablets as instructed I had a very very painful kidney infection which lasted for over a week.

Still 5 years on that baby is always on my mind and I'm still waiting for the right time to start my family. Me and my partner would like to have a baby in a year or so, but first we want to get settled at work and in our house so we can provide what will be needed for our child.