My baby wasn't a fetus, it was a baby, a human being

I had a medical abortion 2 days ago. I was 14 weeks pregnant, and I thought what I was doing was for the best.

I am not in a stable relationship, have no money, and nothing going for me apart from having my 9 year old daughter.

When I went for my abortion my mind was full of doubt at the start, my head was saying abort, my heart was saying don't.

My baby fell out of my womb

I had the procedure done and an hour later my baby fell out of my womb and in to the bed pan.

I saw his little face, (he looked so beautiful and content, but he was not he was dead and I had murdered him).

I didn't want the nurses to take him. I wanted to wrap him up and take him home.

I can't live with myself for what I have done.

I never gave that child the chance in life it deserved and that will stay with me for the rest of my days.

I think abortion should be illegal past the 6 weeks mark, as my baby wasn't a fetus it was a baby, a human being.

Make sure the decision about abortion is talked through and about, don't just follow your head follow your heart please.